Choices

I don't know how to make you understand how I feel because I can't even understand myself fully. Maybe it's the influences I get from people around me.. But these people really mean a lot to me and their opinions make sense. And even if you don't worry about the fees, i do.. My worst nightmare ever coming through. And it has a dateline. What would you think of going somewhere so far away from where you feel at home, with probably no one you know with you, leaving everyone you love, and everything isn't really a bucket full of roses, I hate how I'm feeling now. I just wanna cry and cry and cry, but that doesn't solve my problems. If only people gave me these opinions way before i signed, or of I chose JAE, listened to mr tan.. Mum, k know that I'm not complacent, I know not every school would want me and I'm not that smart. I know my limits, I know vj wouldn't want me, I know.. :( really regretting not choosing JAE over the sense of security DSA gives me. But now it's giving me nothing but regrets, actually all along DSA just gave my frustrations after frustrations. First having to choose which school to go to, then now regretting your choice..I really don't want to graduate but time stops for no one.. If lj's gonna withdraw.. I wish you all the best and I'd the best four years of my life here in PHS with you. Brothers!!! Having each other to count on cause we're not like the typical girly girls, and going through so much together and in the end getting our golden cookie! I really don't see how people can look forward to graduation. We'll still be friends, but it just wouldn't be the same. Everyone moves on in the end but what if you choose to trap yourself in the past. Life would suck. Suppose I'm regretting my choice so much just because I wanna be with you guys; and it's not like me to do so. Have always chosen the route which people seem the least interested in just so I could get away( but not this time... Sigh. God please help me. Feel so lost and sad.