:D

As much as I'd like to think otherwise, you are really a great friend and still mean something to me ^_^ bumping into you at the train station made my day, heheh. I missed talking to you. Hopefully we'd be able to meet up soon..

:').....

Yeh.. Why. I don't feel like studying, psh. Feel so sad to graduate, really.. Like what it I don't wanna move on. Probably we'd just gonna be too busy & be forced to move on with life. -shrugs- I don't know. I don't wanna know either...

26 days

26 days to O's. am I screwed? Yes, but I'm hoping otherwise. And yes, I'm going AC. Without lj. Wish me luck peeps.
I hate how I'm so shy around you, then seeing you talk to someone else so perfectly normal, yeah. It suckkkks. Wished I could have one of those normal conversations with you without feeling awkward.. Graduation in 2 days. Sigh..

Omg

Haha omg im blogging because I deleted my twitter app and I'm feelin so lost without it! >_< ... Yeah. Gonna read a lil of chem and go to sleep. Been really tired the past few days, not good for the people around me, I get grumpy! Haha.. Well.. 35 days to O's, 11 to graduation. As much as I dread these days coming, we've still gotta face it so.. Heck yeh. Probably sending Ronald off tomorrow, hopefully it wouldn't be awkward with jem & her mum!! Will have piano first tho, then travelling to the airport. WHOO. Sigh.. I can't stop thinking about AC and the withdrawal.. 5 oct. I know. But I any do anything
About it.. Hopefully you wouldn't too.. I mean let's not get affected by what others say and just go and experience it ourselves!

\(^_^)/

Thanks for being with me through both of my worst times in this year so far. Making my DSA choice and the withdrawing matter.. I've never felt so lost in my life before. Till now actually, I'm not certain what I want but sigh.. Doesn't matter anymore, it's just two years, go in and be done with it.. And hopefully two years later, we'd still be there for each other. Never thought this would happen. But yeh, same here, as long as you're happy, I am too. Be it if you'd have new friends next time.. Just hope we'd keep in touch :(. Don't wanna lose people close to me.. Anyway prelims results tmr, hurhurZ the joy..... Bye -_-

Wtjriaxd

I don't know what to feel now. I give up explaining to you, you just keep finding new problems with it, but I'd like to know what would happen. Aiya idk la, hate this

Choices

I don't know how to make you understand how I feel because I can't even understand myself fully. Maybe it's the influences I get from people around me.. But these people really mean a lot to me and their opinions make sense. And even if you don't worry about the fees, i do.. My worst nightmare ever coming through. And it has a dateline. What would you think of going somewhere so far away from where you feel at home, with probably no one you know with you, leaving everyone you love, and everything isn't really a bucket full of roses, I hate how I'm feeling now. I just wanna cry and cry and cry, but that doesn't solve my problems. If only people gave me these opinions way before i signed, or of I chose JAE, listened to mr tan.. Mum, k know that I'm not complacent, I know not every school would want me and I'm not that smart. I know my limits, I know vj wouldn't want me, I know.. :( really regretting not choosing JAE over the sense of security DSA gives me. But now it's giving me nothing but regrets, actually all along DSA just gave my frustrations after frustrations. First having to choose which school to go to, then now regretting your choice..I really don't want to graduate but time stops for no one.. If lj's gonna withdraw.. I wish you all the best and I'd the best four years of my life here in PHS with you. Brothers!!! Having each other to count on cause we're not like the typical girly girls, and going through so much together and in the end getting our golden cookie! I really don't see how people can look forward to graduation. We'll still be friends, but it just wouldn't be the same. Everyone moves on in the end but what if you choose to trap yourself in the past. Life would suck. Suppose I'm regretting my choice so much just because I wanna be with you guys; and it's not like me to do so. Have always chosen the route which people seem the least interested in just so I could get away( but not this time... Sigh. God please help me. Feel so lost and sad.

Poo

Heyall, I've yet to studied econs.. Yikes! >_< alright, I'll read through after dinner, hehe. Well, yknow im wishing that even if nothing much happens, we'd one day be comfortable around each other and be best of friends.. But I don't know.. :(

I'm out of heads

Owwww, head's hurting. I wanna sleep soon.. Oh yeah, while I was reading my old cards. I came across my sec3 card.. I miss actually miss Jana.. :/ it's quite scary how she was like really someone impt in my life and now we're like strangers, don't know if she hates me, if she does make it enemies. Lol -___- but I do miss her. Remember the fun times we had.. But I guess this is life. Aww man. :( ok, I'm taking forever to read the last few chapters of physics and I just hope that I won't flunk tmr big time. Sigh. Why do I still have the cannot be bothered mindset, HAHAHAHA O's in 41 days.. And I can't be bothered, omg. I'm nuts .

Slaaack

Ultimate slacker. Omg im just slacking my butt off and and wearing sssc's jacket ;) haolian abit, but I do think it's warmer than PHS's and anyway I kinda miss cs this year.. Heh. I just miss anything related to vb. read through my cards just now, yes told you I slacked, and it brings back grey memories!! Everyone talking about getting that golden cookie, well, we've got it. :) haha. It's amazing. But I'd love to go back in time and play the matches all over again.. Im pretty screwed for Amath tmr.. And I'm doing nothing to save myself, what a loser... -___- Tsk. Whatever. It's like you've lost hope to the extent that you don't even wanna try. Anyway, there's no point to this post, I'm just really bored and I don't wanna study for Amath.. And yeah. That's all. Haha.. Time flies at the speed of light, lol, 41 days to O's, about 2 weeks to graduation.... -___- GRR. Hate how time passes so quickly, super hate it!!! But I can't do anything about it, so I'm gonna eat loacker cause they're amazingly delicious, yay. #getfattime. Oh I an excited for U17 tho... Very last time playing for PHS.. Haha. I think I'm gonna cry.

Don't stop believing

"错过一时, 就会错过一世."
Been the best show I ever watched! The guys are like the sweetest things ever omg :') cried my eyeballs out.. Really. And it's true, everything's about timing... Sigh. I'm gonna trust and stop doubting & worrying, yay. :)

Yawn

I'm tired.. How on earth do people mug like nuts and "chiong".. Really? I'm a failure at chionging and being productive. Today's study session which was meant to be productive was normal, complete a chem mcq and a few Amath qsns which I then gave up on... Amath kills me.. Really. Sigh. Oooooh, I see a black kitty! Okay.. Sigh :(.

Yawn

I'm tired.. How on earth do people mug like nuts and "chiong".. Really? I'm a failure at chionging and being productive. Today's study session which was meant to be productive was normal, complete a chem mcq and a few Amath qsns which I then gave up on... Amath kills me.. Really. Sigh. Oooooh, I see a black kitty! Okay.. Sigh :(.

UGH.

Sumpa. 42 days. IM STRESSING MYSELF OUT NOW. WTF.

>:/

Why can't I ever be productive and hardworking... Don't have much time left, I'm not supposed to feel stress cause I'm not even studying... Lol. -_- just take Chinese for example, wtf didn't even study... Omg. Bet the pandas are furious with me now... Tsk. Gonna study w lj tmr... IM PRAYING THAT IT'LL BE PRODUCTIVE. And dear Lord, pls bless me through the remaining 1month or so.. Only left with these few weeks, pray that I'll be hardworking and not like a lazy sack of potatoes......

And my electronic dictionary jusssssst bosssss.... The screen... Boss -_------, dk since when it cracked (Y). Good job sia. OWE MEGA THANKS TO CELINE for saving my life tmr.... Wish the days would stop, the countdown would stop and just give me time to study, yeah 自找... Never start studying earlier , just cry when I take results lo... -roll eyes- zzzzzzz. KTHXBAI. Annoyinggggg siaaaaa. Lemme be a panda pls.. I'd wanna eat bamboo shoots everyday.

:3

There's a high chance that my brain kinda fell asleep, explains the crazy convo I had with huimin and Germaine! :'D IT'S SUPER FUNNY. Omg.. And a small auto correct got me laughing to myself.. Okay, sounds dumb but it made my night. Heheh. it's nearing 11pm, probably sleep soon. :) gym, tuition, studied with germ and hm, however unproductive I felt... At least i did something.

This sucks.. Everytime I see her post something about her "new" bf, it just reminds me of how she left her sec school life behind in a breeeeeze and is on with her new life.. If that happens... Sighpie. I don't know. Haha okbye.

Shajzjquandnqa

I'm sorry I'm like that.. :( I just can't imagine life beyond PHS... Don't want to graduate.. Thought JC would be rather cool and fun.. But no. Not anymore. Sigh.... IDKLA. :( maybe next year this time, you'd be with somebody else and maybe next time this year we wouldn't even be friends anymore, and I'd look back at these memories.. Or maybe I'd be the one that moved on, haha... BOOOOOOO. This sucks. -.- hate it when I start thinking sooooo much and it just makes me super sad GAH. I need to stop. Mehhhhh. Pdbilwsoe, isiitotmofbktn, ytotiltm.

:/

Dont know why I even bother thinking about it, not like I can cancel my DSA and change schools, not just would it cause unhappiness, probably cause at least 2 schools to hate me forever... Not like im that good. But really wondering what if I regret my choice l, my worst nightmare coming true.. What I worried most about about DSA coming true.. I don't mind making new friends, it's the old that I worry about .. Well first off would be herrrrrr, like the last time I played with you in combine school the ending wasn't really good, like I just think it was awkward, and I worry about how things would be like when we're on the same team. And next would be how you would react to me having new friends, well obviously I don't fit in too well with your friend's, I definitely will find new friends, sorry. But don't hold any grudge on me for doing so cause I promise you'd still be my best buddy, just that who you are close to is not who I am comfortable with. Really. And pls don't assume I am cause I definitely am not which also brings me to worry about how I'm gonna play with them if I'm do extremely uncomfortable and not myself with them.. Maybe in time to come I'd be. But till that day.. :/ sigh. And suddenly everyone's like telling me not to go AC, first my tutor, tellin me about the distance. Then jem, dk why saying that I'll regret.. And then chew today saying that ht is complaining about the jersey money and if I I AJ all of this would not happen.. Actually if all this happened before I made my choice, I'd be extremely grateful... But now that it's coming after my choice it's just giving me a lot of things to worry about and cause me to start regretting my choice.. Which is not good!!!! GAH.... LET GOD. KK. Enough said.

PANDAS

OMG I SWEAR THEY'RE THE CUTEST THINGS EVER ALIVE. I'm in love with them, hehe! What cute names too, Jiajia and kaikai, she shares the same Jia as me!!!!!!! (^_^) man.. They're so cute, I can't even!

Alright, had a study session with jem and germ at Popeyes, it was alright at least I managed to finish some work. And it was a rather conducive place, I mean dunkin donuts. Had dinner with mummy after at dian xiao er, will be going back to training tomorrow! :) I'm
Excited. Hopefully I won't chui tmr and like KO in franco's training.. Seriously will Chui -___- and hopefully the dinner with Junwei and huimin would
be cool. :) haha.. ALRIGHT. Byebyez.

"I wish I had the courage to tell you that I love you and the strength to hear your answer. #viatumblr"

Girls

真奶girls came over today, went down for a little while and as shenyun, Xinni and June cooked our pasta lunch, which was not bad, we were busy prank calling people. Haha, Ben w's was the first and the funniest man. Subsequently, settled with the joke of the day call and called others after lunch, kinda spent our entire day doing that .___. It's quite dumb actually, but great laughs.. Oh yeah, and apparently the caller's supposed to be called Jenny, 真奶. Ridiculous. Haha. Had piano and went to the gym after. Some guy had to hog the treadmill and leave me to the stupid cross trainer which I'd no idea how to use. Been on it for 20 minutes and burnt 43 calories, wasted 20 minutes of my life.. Then was too tired for the treadmill, walked for 20 minutes and ran 10 minutes... Ugh. Note to self: don't go to the gym at timings after work, it's just mad packed!!! Mum was home early, so we had dinner, then she went out again .-. Oh well.

Tuition tmr at 10-12, then off to
The airport to study with jem and germ. Hopefully tmr'll be the most productive day of the week. And I'd most probably be late. Again. Having dinner with mummy, :) excited. Alright better get some sleep now, I really think my new bedsheet is super cute, heheh. Yeaaaah, bye. Really wanna watch a movie, someone date me! :( HEHE.

:'(

Feel so sad now... Don't wanna graduate, really, REALLY! Once I heard there's only 24 days left.. Im like so sad.. Sigh..
Had fun today with jessie, Evan and Celine. Being with them remind me of lower sec days, when things were so much different. Haha, fun days. Don't want my secondary school life to end, always hear people say these are the best days of your lives. But everything comes to an end.. Wonder what JC life woul be like.. You know I don't wanna sound like some despo shit but, hey, promise me you'd never forget me yeah? :/ sigh.. Wonder what's things gonna be like. Don't wanna think about it.. Not having expectations of what things would become is better than that.

:')

Woke up for a morning jog today, haha wondering if I should do the same tomorrow... But we'll see about that, wouldn't be sleeping as early as last night. Waiting for mummy to come home with my douhua! *_* heheh. Wasn't very productive today, but ah heck.. :p

Rest week

Got back from Malaysia today, :). Been awhile since I've been there, enjoyed all the food we'd always have, youtiao, kuey tiao kia, wanton mee. Gong gong and popo's constant prompts of wanting me to eat something. Hehe I miss them!! Hopefully after O's will be able to spend time with them more often.
Next week ahead, I'd plan to study a lil bit but everyone's coming to my house, lol... Open house. But ok la, hopefully catch up with Jessie, Evan and Celine. And for class girls, hope we'll have fun. Dk what we're gonna do tho. For the rest of the week, hopefully I'll study.. :/
Things been going alright now.. :) it's scary to think about the future, about everyone moving on... I don't really wanna think about it. Scares me to think that maybe my closest friend now wouldn't be in contact with me after we graduate.. :( that's sad shot. And I cannot actually believe that school is gonna start on my birthday, like omg............ Seeeriousssly... Well, let's live day by day. Enjoy every moment we'd have left tgt :/